http://www.justrage.com JustRage's 20 latest in all its splendor. en-gb http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070922144629401 he's an idiot, he thinks he is better than everyeone else. I constantly says "welll I will do 'this and that and blah blah'" when i have more time and get this pile on my desk gone. I am just so busy.....oh lord am I am busy. I just don't think you realize all that I do. YESSSSS I realize you just sit on your ass all day and god knows what you do! I have not seen you do anything? Maybe one little session cmonnnnnnn ONE in two weeks.?! I'm sorry if you think you are better than everyone else, but earth to YOU, YOU are NOT. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070922144629401 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070922141818729 I made a huge mistake last night.My girlfriend got me so angry that i decked her in the face.I know our relationship isnt ever gonna be the same.Im so fucking pissed that i did that that i just wanna smash everything in my fucking house.I wish i could just go back in time.FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070922141818729 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070922095657106 I am so tired of dealing with this fucking prick. He thinks he is so fucking perfect. When in reality he is a fucking asshole. He thinks he is superior over me. He talks down to me treats me like shit. I am so tired of his bullshit. I have been married to this jerk off for just over 20 yrs. 20 years too long if you ask me. He is a peice of shit. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to him. I am just tired of being his personal punching bag. It's time for me to move on. Too bad I wasted twenty years on this moron. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070922095657106 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/2007092121302610 Im tired of my fuckin' life and everything in it. Im tired of my fuckin' teachers for not teachin' us a goddamn thing, but making us do notes so they can sit behind their little fucked up desks, and drink their 2 cent coffee, while im over here struggling. Im tired of the folks at school that all look the same and think that everything is supposed to be like them, were supposed to like te same things they like, im tired of those dumb-ass boys fuckin those ugly ass gorrilla whores, im tired of coming home and not having peace. I'm tired of being lonely, im tired of being ugly, im tired of people trying to help me and when i tell them my problem they act like they don't know what im talking about and walk off. so far, ever since 1997 my life has been nothing but a diasaster, i've been in a depression since i was 8 and no one will do anything about it, i've seen a therapist and SHE couldn't do anything about it, i have dreams and their probably not gonna come true because of the way my luck is, so you know what? i quit! I just give up, i surrender. You got me GOD! im done, it's over, im helpless, i quit. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/2007092121302610 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070921201908327 I hate fucking life, I want to kill my self. My dad walked out on me when I was three years old. My Mom is like fucking bipolar. And I hate with a passion my life. Everything looks good in the middle of the fucking suberbs, but inside my fucking cookie cutter house,there is always a fight about how huch I never contribute to my house. My mom pawned my fuck computer and iPod and tv to pay for all the clothes and sht she hs bought me. All my fucking friends are fucking rich and I hate how unfair it is that I never get anything or get to go out because we never have any fucking money. I have fucking cancer. My dosn't give a SHIT! I could possebly die in the next year and my mom dose not care. nobody dose. One day I was so sick from radiation that I couldn't stand up without getting sick nd my mom yelled at me for not wasing her car!! I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070921201908327 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070921185734109 i hate my mum so fucking much ,she's such a cheap bitch she didnt even get me a birthday present, cos she had to pay for some piece of shit tafe course that she failed anyway and had to pay this huge phonebill cos my bitch of a sister racked up a huge phone bill ,and the worst thing is that this isnt even the first time, it happened when i was 11 she didnt get me a present and she didnt get me a christmas present a few years ago cos my sister wanted more for her and my mum forgot about me ,and im absolutely sick of this shit i hate my mum so much, fuck i always give her change when she gives me money but my sister will come home with like 5 bucks change from 50 bucks and wont get in trouble i HATE THEM ALL!!!!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070921185734109 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070921162553213 Shes a FUCKING IDIOT! she spends an average of 8,000 dollars every month now shes asking ME to save money apparently this is all MY FAULT! i hate her shes saying that I'M spending to much money well im not the one blowing off money for a fucking yard and pool i told her not to and what does she do? she uses over a million dollars shes an idiot http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070921162553213 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/2007092113042939 I am eighteen now, and I would move out, but there is no way i can afford college and living expenses simultaneously, so i live with my parents. They, along with my 11-year-old sister, are complete slobs. They toss stuff in the garbage until it is overflowing and when i go to change it out, everything falls all over me. They leave dirty dishes out and open containers of food all over the house. In the laundry room, whenever they do laundry, they spill detergent everywhere and normally dump clothes on the floor instead of the hampers. My mom refuses to smoke outside, so all clothes/everything smells like smoke. I find that I am cleaning all of the time, because I am embarrassed and don't like people see my house like this so they can judge us. Clutter is everywhere because they have bought everything under the sun for my sister that she doesn't need, and she just leaves it around. I spend at least 60% of my free time cleaning not just my room/bathroom, but the rest of the house. No one else does anything. I'm worn out and I don't even have fun anymore, but I don't want to live in a gross house. There is so much to do it is overwhelming and depresses me. :/ http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/2007092113042939 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070921101052498 So my mom the one that was supposed to be there for me and take care of me doesent. she goes to work all day buys herself alot of stuff while i am sittin right next to her with 2 pairs of pants NO sweatshirts (hoodies) and one pair of pants. school is right around the corner and i asked her to get me some new clothes, and of corse she threw a fuckin bitchfit about how i suck as a human being.so then i offer to go in half she does nothing but bitch continuesly (i think thats how you spell it).Ohh yeah did i mention she just took 5000 dollars out of her retierment fund. yeah and she still wants to bitch about giving her son 200 dolars for new clothes. Ohh yeah did i also mention that i am trying to save up to get a new car and i got 400 dollars saved up and of corse no help from the one person in this worl i am supposed to be able to count on no matter what. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070921101052498 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070921054312627 I have a lot to say about hating my parents, they have been good for giving me food and a room, but they have been a bullshit for letting me have a life. Thinking ahead even having the food and the room were always painful for me, I don't know again where to start. Let's see, my father always humillated me in public and it was since I was child, my mother just was fear of him and always said that she supported him, my father always was complainig by every expense, not in the normal way, (like omg, dammit this stupid accounts again) instead of that he used to say, " it's because of your stupid existence I have to pay", he always used to say that we don't love him, because we don't give him money to pay, even if me and my sister were just childs. He also always manipulated the situations for blaming us for every single thing that went wrong in our family. My mother just afraid and liar always. Even when I tried for her not to do things that would anger my father, she did, and of course as my father, always put us, their childs as the reason to justify every move. They just hated each other worst than enemies, they always tried to tease each other, to make fall the other but always trying to keep their inmaculate reputation of good people in front of others, and always used us as a shield or reaon for every single bad thing they wanted to do each other. My farther never liked me to go out, he said that it was was druggadicts, and losers to get out of the house, and if I do I will see what he will do to me, and againg my stupid mother in that case was also agree. I believe my mother a hypocrite, she hated him but I think she just agreed for him to believe she was supportive so she could do easier bad thing to him, well, first little bad things, like not giving him breakfast, stealing money from his pockets, because my father is extremely machista, he used to say to my mother I remember, "oh you have a brain you can think well done!" when she used to say elementary things about math and stuff, my mother finished high school, even though my father treated her like a retard just because he thinks women are less than men, he is proud to say that he likes her wife just in the kitchen and just cooking, she can't even go out to the corner. What I hate the most is that with strange people whom he feels overwhelmed he just acts like a servant, even when he comes home he talks good about that people, compare us with them and always says that we are the shit, you know my self steem when I was child were on the ground even downer. I was fear even of suiciding because I felt like he was going to get so angry that I couldn't get the idea of it. It was a hell, and of course, my mother never tried to stop him in those cases, she just said, it's nothing, don't listen to him, well this worked at first but it became worst, because my father is extremely incomprehensive and especially if hi noticed that we were lying he used to tell all his hates and tried to punish us in different ways, he prefered the psycological way of punishment, and it became wors because my mother just invented stupid lies, which even a kindergarden kid would know are lies and also ridiculus, so I was stucked, I was trapped, I started to lose the reason even being a child, I developed imaginary fears for example, that I will kill my mother just by thinking it, or that I'm gonna be possesed by the devil if I imagin him in a dog, and many others, that was when I was approximadetly 12, and to add more trouble, they always tried to frightened me with anything, when I was trying to recover myself of fears, is like they liked when I was sad, I know they are pretty sick, but in those times I didn't know, even now sometimes I believe them as normal, well, I'll continue. I really was scared most of my childhood of my father, I tried of course to see ways of getting out, even through tv or few friends I tried to have, my father of ourse tried always to lock me at home, so also I started to develop an antisocial behaviour, maybe based on fear that my father taught me, I couldn't keep a good relation ship because I always ended up depressed or full of fear and anger, but I didn't want to base all my relationships in hate as my father was willing to make me be, so with the low selfsteem I had, I was a bitter, trying to be good, which made look crazy in front of high school people, and you know how is high school, a depressed person is comdemed to be more depressed, so I tried to look for my own personality, which I maintained for periods of time, as my mood was going up and down, you know you try to survive. I'm just skimming the facts and the things I've been through a lot, but, anyways, sumarizing the only thing that saved somehow myown self is my own wish to survive and to believe that some day they will be denounced to the world or to someone who cares, you know I tried to develop my own self by my self, even if my parents always were trying to make me fail or or to have a drawback, I really hate them, you know, even if sometimes they seemed good people, they weren't really honest when being or pretended being good they were just trying to be coward and summise to their believes in the punisher god, but they never tried to solve anyproblem, they were always saying everything is right when I asked them if there is anything wrong, and telling me everything is wrong when I was trying to be ok, my mother even with her sickness, hypocresy and corruption, somehow made this hell more survivable against my father, but shecreated another one for me, she really didn'twant me to be a person she just wanted to kill my father so we stay with the home and those things, which I also didn't do I don't know why but, she has her sick isues also, she spyes me through holes on the walls when i'm locked in my room, she does't want me to work, she doesn't want me to have friends, or girlfriend, she also uses lies to tell us that if we don't do somethings we don't love her, If we don't obey her she makes us feel misserable and suddendly changes the mood if wesay yes, so she is insane also, she has had at least to persons who came to our house and made something with her, I mean lovers, what I hate about the first one is that when I caught them I was a child, maybe 11 or 10, he tried to hugh me like if he were my father, he touched my feet and I really felt awful and my mother was there and did nothing I had to run away from there, confused and really willing to cry, my mother when I asked her she said nothing happened, I was even with more fear of everything because I used to trust my mother, until then, all those things wants to make become into a beast, consumes you from inside, especially if you are trying to be a good person that makes you crazy, so all my teenage years I was a bit crazy and depressed, the only thing that kept my sanity I thing was the good taste for science, even if it's considered a taste for morons, it saved me, because the reasons my parents gave me for believeing myself stupid were no such real anymore if they weren't proved, you know they are catholics and they believe in those superstitions and tales of god killing people by whim, so they were extremely sick I think, by that, and by many other things, now you will say that I just says this about god and religion as an atack to it, but I'm not, I respect religion of people, I'm just saying that the were sick for it, of course for me is just a bunch of lies, anyway even showing them that I was good for this stuff, they really didn't show any happiness for it, even my mother was trying to take me away from that, which I hated, so much, well the things I have lived, and the only thing that kept me alive I mean my spirit for not being a bad person even the circumstances, I created another disease I think it's OCD, but I have never locked for help because I still live with this my sick parents who I've learned to domesicate a bit, but even though I can follow up my life without a person that I can really love and being coressponded, well I'll keep seaking about my OCD, this shit doesn't let me dom anything I want is like a gost in my head telling me what to do or not, my mind betrays me, in the sense that I wanna do something and my thoughts and fears appear suddendly and I freeze, or do an stupidity just to satisfy my mind, is like all the people that hates me live inside my mind and comes out when I'm goint to do a challenging thing which as you can imagine made me be more margined, the worst is that i know what's hapening, but my mind makes me do the oposite in every case, now this has left me vulnerable againg with my parents because I can't go out without forgetting my problems, and also it has created also more painful expiriences for me, most of the girl I tried to atach were happy at the begining and really confused and maybe scared of me at the end, except for one who really helped me to ave a bit of a life but she had to go, is the only one who in part I would say saved my good part, I also tried to save myself looking for scientist who defeated adversity, my heroes in many aspects, and also by some people that has inspired me from tv, I know what I'm talking about, but it;s true, well this is a long story I would like to follow writing but I thing it's to much and no one will read it maybe, one more thing today I'm gonna see againg one of the girl I've hurt and made feel uncorfotable on purpose, well I' sick, and I don't wanna see the women my father does, so what I did is to make her feel bad so she can insult me she did, the problem is that I like her a lot, so I earn a bad reputation with her even if she liked me, so now she is really pissed with me but the purpose is that she takes my devils off against women, so I let her insult me, but instead of achieving it I;m just looking as a fool and starting to feel like one, anyway I just tell it because maybe I won't tell her, this, I'm sick, but I'm still fighting to take my sickness away, because, I always triedto be good, and if didn't fin the woman I said before I woul have one wht the columbine guys or the virginia tech guy did, don't worry I'm not in the US, but you know I need some place to release all my anger so this is one one of doing it, well I hate my parents, you know I'm preparing to escape from home, otherwise I would run away, shit I can't write anymore for now, but I hope someone likes or gives his or hers opinion about this shitty chuck of words. Just in case I'm trying to improve, I'm still trying to be a good person, I was becaming someone who could repeat the columbine insident or the virginia's insident but I don't want that, is bad, I wanna have ties to life to make it nore fair, to have a love who really loves me, of course knowing this backgroud, and my willing to survive, I want to be a person of succes, I want the world to be more fair, even if it gives a shit to tons of people, I don't want to be a sick person as my parents, I wanna like life, I wanna be free and do good things, I want to getaway from this shitty piece of junk called home for me. I hate them they always were trying to patrionize me and to make me be miserable I ate them, I will never go back. Fuck them. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070921054312627 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070921040427829 I can't stand my 11year old son, he's a crafty, lying little shit who bores me to death, he irritates me beyond belief.Bad feelings to have for your child. i hate being with him and my partner and his daughter, when its just the 3 of us things are great but as soon as my son is around i tense up,he gets on all our nerves!!He spoils things.his lying is driving me mad!!!!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070921040427829 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/2007092015484675 I hate my boyfriend's mom SO much! She is the most pathetic piece of shit ever. The bitch is a sneaky, lying sack of fat shit I have ever encountered. She's filed for bankrupcy twice now, yet she continues to buy shit like she's Mrs. Jones. She's disgusts me. She has four kids from 3 different men, yet has no problem bashing other women for being permiscuous. WHORE! Honestly, I wouldn't usually say this, but I hope she drops dead. My boyfriend knows she's a liar, but doesn't seem to see her bitchiness. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/2007092015484675 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/2007092013471731 I hate every fucking person that walks this planet. Everyone here is brainwashed. The gov't keeps everyone working MAD CRAZY hours, just to make a living. No one has fucking time to find out what REALLY goes on in this society. I hope all you BLIND MOTHER FUCKERS ROT. You are KILLING this planet and you are setting the ground work for the MASS EXTINCTION of MANKIND!!! I'm FUCKING PISS AS HELL, we have destroyed our childrens lives. I hope the little girl behind you on the train tracks kick your fucking ass and leave you there so you will be squashed like the fucking slim worm you are, from that passing train. USELESS FUCKS! The ARTIC NORTHWEST PASSAGE just opened up, fuckers!!! Soon the Artic EAST WEST Passage will open!!!! READ BETWEEN THE LINE'S: The EARTH IS GETTING HOTTER!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/2007092013471731 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070920083030852 I have some fuckstick neighbors who I have to share a patio area in an apt. complex with. In the 2 years I've lived here, they have not swept or cleaned any part of patio or stairs leading down to or around area. They constantly stomp out cigarette butts on stairs, and patio area. I offered them a butt can, and they brought out a soda bottle and used it a few days. After that, it was back to the same old shit. Every time I clean the area up, it seems like it inspires them to stomp out even more cig. butts and trash in the area. I'm afarid if I go to landlord about it, may cause even worse future issues. I'm about to snatch 'em up next time I see them and just beat hell out of them. Friends and family say I should just turn the other cheek, But I feel like a coward letting it continue, and cleaning up after the white trash. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070920083030852 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070920010057301 I was in a fucked up abusive relationship for 12 years, just got out in March. Unfortunately, my ex still harasses me even with a restraining order on his ass. Why I don't call the cops? Cause they can never find him to arrest him. They get irritated that when they come here to my house, he's gone, and they can't find him to arrest him. So I usually don't call the cops unless really, really necessary. I just can't get rid of my ex. He is a big cry baby right now, saying how no one loves him (can't love a drug addict cause he only loves his drugs), how he has no money to eat (as if he eats), how he has no support (probably can't find a trusted partner to smoke with, without stealing each others shit), now he wants to kill himself (keep smoking eventually it'll happen), how I can be cruel and not show I care (uh, I have nothing, I gave him everything I could so he could "amp" for drugs, I'd still have my shit if I didn't care, actually I do it so he goes away, but I have nothing now, but he don't care), how I should tell him I don't want him in my life (I did tell him, but he threatened to go on a murder rampage if I confirm that I don't want him in my life and I'm sure the rate of him not having nothing he'd probably do it). I can't get away from this fool. I have what I call "traumatic chronic stress." http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070920010057301 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070919140621591 i hate my bitchass ho of a husband. i just can't wait to divorce his stanky ass. He is a liar, a fukkin whore and a worthless waste of skin. I can't WAIT to leave whereupon I hope to never have to lay eyes on his ugly fat mug again, unless of course, it is in a pine box with a lily on his chest. die you piece of shit. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070919140621591 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070918145506282 I came home from a great day at school, went up to our computer room, and onto my computer. About an hour later, the phone rang. It was my Dad (my parents are divorced, and I live with my mom) He said he wanted to take me out for an hour, but earlier on that week, we had gotten into a fight, and I wasnt ready to confront him. so I tell Him I didnt want to see him, and he asks to talk to my mom, so I pass it over to her. Fifteen minutes later, my dad showes up at the door. He and my Mom insist that I go with him. I refused. Then my mom continues into my bedroom, and shows my dad, the holes in the walls, from previous fights with her.(I have NEVER physically harmed my Mother) Then my dad starts getting very serious and threatens to send me to one of the Misbehaved teens centers where those druged up shit head teens live. they go on and on, but I refuse still. Rereading this, I see how stupid I was for being so stubborn, but my Mom changes into a Bitch, in a matter of seconds! I had made a descision, and If people cant respect that, then its their problem. I just dont see their sense in this... http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070918145506282 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070918125448589 Do you ever get tired of hating the people around you? You talk all this shit and finally they begin doing something about it and you're really surprised? You're husband doesn't care and just hopes that your daughter doesn't find out how fucking crazy you really are. If you would just take the time to leave them, the village of haters would just disappear. Along with all of your illusions of what you could be. You are nothing because you feel nothing. You are hateful because you are full of hate. Grow up and realize that no one gave a fuck about you to begin with and thanks to your tactics, no one ever will drop a turd your way! Hopefully your daughter can live a good life, without you being a part of it. Friends? Don't fake your friendships because you never took the initiative to have any true friends. Family? Same old bullshit. All relationships are to you are a waste of time. Go seek out a job, if anyone will ever hire your stinking ass, you bitch. You're lucky your dad died before you disgraced him in front of God and the world. What's that? I guess it's your thoughts of paranoia. No one is feeding you lines of bullshit...it's all in your head. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070918125448589 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070918075825896 I can't fucking stand this big fat cunt, she is 15 years old and a big fat slop. She thinks she can do what she want when she wants. She calls her mother a bitch a cunt and asshole, she text messaged her and tells her to go to hell, tell her mom how much she hates me and i didn't even do anthing to her, well she can go a fuck herself, because in my book she is a complete fucking zero, i am not doing anything for her big fat 300lbs ass anymore, she can go suck the candy off her fingers somewhere else. I have two kids of my own that are little and don't need to fucken listen to this cunt thats going to end up compeletly nothering, unless she wins the lotto. She is a Big Fat Stupid CUNT.....and i hate her fucken guts and can't wait to she leave my fucken home, i will hold the biggest paty ever when i forcliff the fucken ass out the door. S.T. GO FUCK YOURSELF CUNT http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070918075825896 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20070918075144534 Yahoos policy to straighten out a problem that when they are obviously wrong, is to hang up on you. after (4) attempts to retrieve a charge that occured after an account was cancelled. Not only was the charge fradulant, but an overdraft charge from the unauthorised transaction was leveled to me and neither was retrivable, according to Yahoo. this is fraud in every sense of the word. How is it that Yahoo can controll, minipulate, steal ,defraud, with no accountability. This is worng, illeagle, and I would like to initiate a class action law suite against the biggest screw job out there http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20070918075144534