http://www.justrage.com JustRage's 20 latest in all its splendor. en-gb http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090604002904796 Seriously, this is a pattern with you. 99.9999999% of the time, I just ignore your pissy moods, bad habits, and self absorbed petty bullshit. Today is different. You keep me on the phone with you for 3 hours over your dead cat-- fine. I don't mind. But when you do it daily for 6 weeks; its fucking obsessive and weird. My *grandmother* died and you don't even ask me how I'm doing, you just go into how you're trying this nightshade free diet I have work to do, work that pays the bills and puts food on the table and what do you do? You want me to drop everything and do artwork for you, stuff which will never get done because a) you can't make up your mind b) you don't know what you want and all important c) you don't really ever want me to be done with this because then you wouldn't have something to lord over me. Don't try to blame your shit on being mentally ill either. That's total bullshit, crazy isn't an excuse to be nasty to people. Don't blame your shit on being in pain (if you want to hear pain sometime, I'll record you going on about how you were such a rebel way back when and then play it back to you)-- I have mind bending migraines and I'm not a bitch (in fact, I try to be extra special nice or at least keep myself away from the rest of humanity in order to avoid doing or saying anything that I may have to apologize for later.) If you wanted to stay friends with me-- then today was the wrong fucking day to shit in my Cheerios and waste my time. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090604002904796 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090603020405653 I can't believe you lied to me repeatedly over and over about where you were going, the fact that you wanted to be alone... I can't believe i had to accidentally read a page of your open diary to find what you had really been up to. Did you really have to lie to me, break my heart, make me feel like the most unwanted person on the planet, so you could go to London and sell your body for sex? Two guys, and three hundred pounds? Do you really think that's all you're worth? You spent it on clothes and jewelery that you didn't need. Was it worth it? Was it worth destroying every ounce of trust i had in you? I will never love you again. Because i know deep down, you're a filthy lying whore who would lie to their best friend for weeks on end and make her feel like shit for three hundred fucking pounds, that you didn't even need. You disgust me. My revenge is that you will never know. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090603020405653 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/2009060301034825 I hate my stupid husband so much. I am leaving his sorry ass just as soon as I can get a divorce attorney. Sorry ass is 47 years old and still stuck to his mommy. Mommy is never wrong, mommy sticks her nose in our business and our kids, mommy is perfect, mommy this, mommy that. Makes me want to fucking puke. Don't know why I married this sorry mama's boy to begin with. We had a stupid argument with our teenager. Hubby's mommy calls and wants to know what is going on. Our teenager called granny. Granny had to stick her nose in our business. Wuss ass had to knuckle under to mommy. Came to me and said, "mommy says you were in the wrong in that argument" What the fuck business is it of hers anyway? Why the fuck does this dickless wonder jump through hoops for his stupid mommy? I'm out of here. He can go live with his perfect mommy. I can't live up to perfect mommy. Hope the two of them will be very happy together. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/2009060301034825 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090602234130326 I'm sick of all these fucking gutless fucks conservatives with no fucking clue about anything. These dumb fucks can't come up with an original idea, they just say whatever some republican fucking puppet says. They always try to talk tough but I say bullshit! Every time I argue with these pussies they get scared and run off....fucking phonies. They always say they protect freedoms but its just the opposite...all the conservative fuckasses want to install their religious views into politics...that's the biggest breach of freedom there is! Freedom of religion...thats what makes America what it is, not some tight-ass ideology. Fucking conservative pussies, most of em are closet gays and nut jobs http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090602234130326 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090602124515359 Listen up you lying, conniving sleazebag. From the minute you set foot in that company we have heard about the lies and twists of stories that you have taken to management. I know what your problem is scumbag. Where you come from you have your women follow you like slaves and you treat them like shit. Well mister, you ain't there now, you're here right here in good ole Canada. And, the women that you HAVE to put up with in this workplace will NEVER bow down to you. You cannot stand the fact that we are eloquent and speak up and stand our ground whenever you come around with your snarky, ill mannered attitude eh? We will always have the last say because it just so happens that we are always right and you arsehole continue to fuck up and look stupid. I heard about the last little stunt you tried to pull fuckhead, but let me tell you this, there is no way on this green earth you would have gotten away without getting your arse in trouble if the man had fallen down the stairs and broken something. Yeah, got the picture, fucktard? Got it? spew all you want, you were responsible for what happened and nothing can wash that away, not even that spineless cockroach you report to. You're nothing but a smelly, pissyheaded, major cunt and I guarantee you that KARMA is a big fat bitch! FUCK OFF!!!!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090602124515359 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090601223843837 Okay, here's the deal. I work with you. I like you as a person. We get along fine at work, but in case you haven't noticed I haven't invited you over and I won't. I listen to you talk and you say a lot about what you do and such and despite the fact that we have a workable work relationshp I will not have you around my home or in my life. I have sized you up and I simply do not like the fact that you are so effing materialistic. You are one of hundreds of my acquaintances but you are not my friend. I have a few people who I call my friends, end of story. Get this, there is a dfference between friends and acquaintances. Don't invite me over to your home. I won't come, because I have no intentions of inviting you back. I will find an excuse if you do, so DON'T! That goes for your other friend who invited me and I didn't go either. Got the picture? Thanks. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090601223843837 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090601172220683 i have 2 sister in laws.mandy and jenni well call them...... mandy thinks shes a supermodel and happens to be doing the same kinda of job as me .shes just lucky enough to be working in a good place...i wouldnt want to deal with the people she has to deal with...so i am making like minimum wage wages while she is living like a king...i have been doing this job longer too,but again she is just lucky .i am much better at this job,while she doesnt take pride in her work...the hubby"jason"could be her dad.hes lucky too in the fact that he owns his own business.they make much over 120k a year together and i dont understand why they still live where he lived when he was single...but jasons job is perfect for him ,he doesnt really have to work but around 5 hours a day...jason has highlights and stuff.i think jason thinks hes 20.mandy loves to shock people with expensive gifts...i was suprised on the last big holiday she got me something i never expected...well now mandy and jason bought basically his and hers sportscars....wow youre fuckin stupid!the last car mandy has she gets into 2 accidents.... jenni,well she was just stupid from the getgo.at least she got more than a 4 yr degree and has a job that most adults spend their whole life trying to get ..shes stupid becasue she married this guy that just doesnt like to work i guess!he has a 2 yr degree he doesnt use,he was in the navy...he goes from job to job i just dont get it .are you staying with him jenni becausehe was your first love???i see your ass getting divorced!everyone knows you also have a eating disorder! i am tired of you 2 making me feel like shit .i will never have the money that you have.the hubby does have a good job .i know for a fact that he never finishes his degree and he lied to me!even though i am a lot poorer than you mandy and jenni at least i am mostly happy...i love my kid to pieces....mandy and jenni im tired of your brother treating me like shit ..hes a fucking dick....if i had went to college id fucking leave his ass.maybe in a few years i will finally get to do something else like ive been wanting to do for years...i will never let my job go to my head and outdo everyone ... FUCK YOUR WHOLE FAMILY!mandy you are not good at your job bitch sorry ,you dont deserve the pay you are getting .and i do badmouth you every fucking chance i get.i think your hubby is a asshole ..and jenni theres a reason i dont talk to you...youre just stupid and never answer your phone ..stop laying out in the sun cause your gonna start looking like your plastic face mother! hope the broadway musical you attended this past weekend was great .i guees you would never ever think to invite someone like me....you are 2 superficial bitches ......if you even got to know me you would see i am pretty on the inside too...... http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090601172220683 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/2009060103590160 Not sure why I married this man. He was straight out of prison. Had (has)alot of fucked up baggage. 3 fucked up kids, with 3 different really fucked up girls. I did not know that in the beginning. I started dating him, I would pick him up, not long we would have his daughter's mother following us in her car. Man I did not know what I was getting myself into. Funny, shit this bitch bought him a pager. I thought that shit was funny. She is, (always will be) Psycho. The bitch stalked her other kids,nigger kids daddy. It has been 10 years shame on me...Should have left along time ago. Especially after I get papers in the mail stating the man I married has another child. Born before we were even together. Still what a fucking man whore!!!!! Now I am depressed and sad cause all he does is talk down to me and tell me that I am an alcoholic loser. He says that he never wants to do anything with me cause I am not fun. Well FUCK HIM and his bald ass ugly mutha fuckin skanky ass. He doesnt even know how to fuck!!!!!! TRUST ME HE SUCKS ASS!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/2009060103590160 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090531203037385 my mum is so in control.shes too lazy to do anythin like cook or clean and even cant be bothered to lokk after my brothers but dont get me wrong sometimes shes the opposite and shell be propa nice but most of the time she tells me what to do and sometimes i stand up and say no but then i feel guily cuz she gets angery and when i want to sleep over in my nans house she says no im not allowed to do anything with her around.what should i do????!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090531203037385 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090530223229427 You scum sucking whore! So you just had to see the new Star Trek movie the day it came out. Even though I was working. And you had to get a fucking guy to pay your way. WTF? Like you couldn't wait a day. Or go with your fucking girlfriends? Or even by your fucking self? I know you know where the movie theter is because I take you there at least once a fucking week. So what was it bitch? Were you to cheap to lay out a few bucks or did you not want to be seen without a male escort? You fucking whore. To throw me over for a fucking movie ticket! I know you just like the fucking fanasty and scifi because you study it so you can pretend to make orgazm noises when we screw. Well screw you whore! So you think you can act all innocent and tell me this fucking guy was a 'freind'. A fuck buddy is more like it. Fuck you. As for me, I am going to warp out of this fucking relationship. Warp speed. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090530223229427 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090530134154535 I'm writing this in Nasty Neighbors but its about my room mate. This is my first year away from home at college. My parents insisted that I not live in the dorms because they were worried about "wierdos", etc. So they decided I should have an apartment. Due to the high cost of apartments in the part of Oregon where my school is, they also decided that it would be great and save money too if I shared a two bedroom apartment with the son of some friends of theirs who was also going to be going to my school. I went to the same high school with this guy, but didn't know him well because he was one of the "Brains" in school, and I never hung out with him. But I trusted my parents and figured it was better than sharing a place with some jock who would always be partying and trashing the place with dirty sweats and socks and shit. MY MISTAKE!!!!! This fucking room mate of mine, who I will call "Mr. Brain" here, is the worst fucking paper-saving maniac in the world. Every fucking day, he comes back to the apartment with a shit load of newspapers, magazines, pamphlets, and all kinds of other shit paper. He never stops bringing paper in and never, ever throws any away. I thought he was sane. MY MISTAKE!!!!! My parents and his drove up here with us and rented a truck to bring us a bunch of really nice furniture. All the stuff from my room at home, plus the old living room and dining room set. Including two nice sofabeds. They gave us sets of dishes, pots and pans, everything. So I figured we could have guests over once we got to know some people. MY MISTAKE!!! Now this paper saving son-of-a-bitch has the whole fucking apartment filled with shit paper. We have two bathrooms. One regular bathroom with a tub and shower and toilet, etc., and one with just a toilet and sink. This motherfucker filled the small bathroom with piles of shit paper. He moved the extra soap and toilet paper, etc., under the sink cabinet and stacked more shit paper on the cabinet shelves. He put more shit paper in the big bathroom. He has paper piled under and on every single fucking chair, sofa, coffee table, and on the dining room table too. He left me a small square of space on the table just big enough to put a dinner plate. I clean up the place and try to get rid of some of his papers. he never cleans up anything. So I decided to move some of his papers to his room and put them on his bed so he'd have to take care of the shit. MY MISTAKE!!!! His room looks like a recycling bin. Dirty laundry! We have been here three months and he has not done his laundry one fucking time. I know he knows where the laundry room in our building is, because he goes down there to pull notices off the bulletin board. There is also dirty dishes and fast food trash all over the fucking room. I could hardly get in the fucking room to begin with. I wanted to vomit from the smell and almost had a panic attack over the claustrophobia. I left him a big fucking note on his door and thought he'd clean up. MY MISTAKE!!!!! The landlord came in the other day. Mr. Brain was sitting in front of the tv. He spends most of his time in front of the tv, watching documentaries about shit like the building of the pyramids, or the rare tree frogs of Africa or the Big Bang Theory. After the landlord got done reaming my out about the mess while Mr. Brain was just sitting there like he had nothing to do with this mess, I felt like testing a Big Bang Theory of my own by blowing up his fucking room. The landlord said the fire marshall was coming in ten days to make an inspection and if "I" did not clean up the mess he would throw "US" out. Great! Fucking great! So I read Mr. Brain the riot act and told him he better get rid of all the shit paper asap. I thought the prospect of getting thrown out would motivate him to clean up. MY MISTAKE!!!! So I had to clean it all up myself. I got a bunch of cord and spent two days out of class getting rid of all his shit paper. I cleaned up the main bathroom. I told the motherfucker that I did not want to see one single piece of paper in the bathroom again. He said "OK". I thought he would cooperate. MY MISTAKE!!!! We eat dinner in the apartment most nights to save money. I usually cook the food and clean up after. Mr. Brain is too busy watching the "Little Known Species of Rodents in the Canadian Wild" or some such shit to help out. Immediately after we ate, I felt a real urge to take a shit. I suspect Mr. Brain set me up because, in a very uncharacteristic attitude of helpfullness, he got the soda and filled the glasses. I think he slipped a laxative into the soda. Anyway, I ran to the bathroom. Only after taking a megashit did I notice that there was no toilet paper. None in the cabinet either. I yelled out from the door but Mr. Brain had the tv volume on max. Finally, I got undressed and washed myself in the shower. When I came out, Mr. Brain says "How come you're using your clothes as a towel?" I said "Where did you put the toilet paper?" He says "You're the one who told me no more paper of any kind in the bathroom." I thought I was living with a human being. MY MISTAKE!!!!! I know that this is a long rage, but the worst is yet to come. In a daze, I asked the idiot what the fuck all the shit paper was. Mr. Brain says "Facts. Facts man!". I asked him if he had any horseshit in his collection because thats what all this paper is and thats a fact! So I started throwing his shit away every day. But he just brings in more and even gets it in the mail. Things like a free video for a fucking lawnmower tiller thing. Or free info on how to grow tomatos in a closet with a special light. Anyway, I was about to throw this junk mail away when I noticed something with my name on it. It was a past due notice from a local storage unit place. The bill was in MY NAME!!! For Christ sake! When I called the place I told the guy that I never took out a unit and described my room mate. The manager said "Yeah. Thats the guy." I went over there and cancelled his unit. It was a 10x20 unit filled with - you guessed it -shit paper. The storage place manager told me that Mr. Brain had used my name and social security number to take out the unit. So now my credit may be fucked up! When I asked him why he did it, he just said he had defaulted on a credit card and thought my name would be clear. I never thought anyone could be so dishonest and inconsiderate. MY MISTAKE!!!!! This bastard has ruined my first year at college and my first living away from home that could have been so great. He makes it a habit to piss off our apartment balcony at the girls jogging behind our place. I thought I might meet a nice girl here. MY MISTAKE!!!! I took pictures of the apartment and the mess he made. I had to write to the storage company and explain what happened. I made copies of all the letters, etc. I made a copy of the letter from the landlord about clean up or get out. I sent everything to my parents so they would know why I told Mr. Brain to get out. He says he doesn't have to leave since we got the place together. Also I went to the school counselor to see if they could help this asshole with his paper adiction. After listening to me, the counselor sent me to the school's mental health counselor. Instead of giving me advice about the asshole, the fucking psychiatrist thinks I am the one making the mess and I have no room mate and am on the brink of some kind of breakdown. He said coming to him for help was the 'first positive step toward recovery'. I thought I was sane. MY MISTAKE!!!! The parents are all coming up this coming weekend. I don't know if they got my letter before they left to come here. I thought about cleaning up but decided not to. I want them to see what this motherfucker has done here and how he makes me miss class and fucks up my study time with his mess and his fucking documentaries on tv. Maybe they will see how their idea of us sharing an apartment was THEIR MISTAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090530134154535 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/2009053012343899 FUCK YOU HEWLETT PACKARD!!! I bought a new HP Pavilion DV6 series notebook, set it up and installed all the software I had on my previous computer onto it. Now every time I shut down that mother fucker it buzzes from the fucking AC adapter!!! Now I don't dare go to sleep without unplugging all the cables from it. Now the only way to fix it is to buy the new AC adapter which will probably just do the same or replace the thing with another computer which will probably be more slower. And it seems I'm not the only customer putting up with this CRAP!!! Others have the same computer and same problems with the AC adapter, only theres is overheating!!! Maybe if you used quality products instead of CHEAP SHIT you'd have more customers!! In other words SCREW YOU HP!!! NEXT TIME I SEE A HP PRODUCT I'M PUTTING AN AXE THROUGH THAT SHIT!!!! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/2009053012343899 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090530042427877 First of all - FUCK YOU! You stupid dumb bitch who spawned the piece of shit that I married. Who do you think you are ringing up to cry on the phone over the crap state of your own marriage. You cried and asked us to buy you a plane ticket so that you could get away from your crappy husband. You cried and asked us to let you stay with us for an indefinite period. My stupid husband swallowed your act hook, line and sinker and I was the stupid ass who had to fork out $200 for an emergency plane fare. Then you rang to say 12 hours before the flight that you had patched things up and no longer wished to fly out. $200 bucks down the toilet because I can not cancel a flight within 24hours of departure. You don't even have the decency to offer to pay us back. We live 2000km away from you and still you manage to rape us over. I fucking work two jobs to raise my two kids under the age of three. You know how tight money is for us. You know how much it costs to raise children yet you have no qualms whatsoever of taking our money and we don't have jack to show for it. Fuck, you are a bloody millionaire with your fucking shopping complex that rakes in serious bucks in rental income yet you have to fucking scab from us - your own children who fucking don't even own a house yet! You could've just come visit your grandkids, but no, that would mean that you would have to get off your lazy fat ass. You fucking bitch. Don't think I will forget about this. I won't let a fucking ugly bitch get away with this. Sooner or later you are going to pay and if it isn't with cash then it is going to be with your fucking tears. Revenge is a bitch and I will eventually get mine. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090530042427877 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090530035754975 Now,I know you have seen those commercials with the cavemen.I think they are really dumb.Who thought of that?It had to be a straight guy.I think a woman would think of something better than that.A gay guy as well.The creator must be some bloke making $ 9.00 an hour.I understand the idea is to have such a bad commercial,that people will talk.I mean,come on people.The lizzard was cute.Now,you are represented by dumb cavemen. Wow, you must be so proud.You need to bring back the gecko.I am telling you.People want to see something cute,and not ugly cavemen.We live in 2009.Come on! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090530035754975 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090530014034933 Politicians suck, always lying to us and bending the truth. Does anyone think that a Libertarian candidate would be a good leader.I mean one that is truly interested in the welfare of this nation, not just trying to push his own agenda and trying to control us all. I've looked on some of their sites and they seem to almost fall in line exactly with what America's founders founded the U.S.A. on. Mainly being that every man is free, has a right to be free, and that the government's only role is to provide for the safety and well being of the people. I truly would love to see a libertarian in the office of president, not just another 4 years of some windbag thinking he knows whats best for us all. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090530014034933 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090529225834173 I swear my mom purposely puts me through hell, that fucking bitch. She tourchers my poor dad who got his heart broken by that slut just because she wanted to see other people. My dad is the only one who knows how to keep me happy, I love him for that. And then theres my little sister I love her and all but she can be such a spoiled little bitch, were the hell does a 5 year old get that atitude?Damn. She gets so annoying, I mean can't she figure out that I don't give a shit about what happend in your fucking kindergarden class, god damn. She acts like shes so smart but shes not she is a fucking 5 year old who doesn't even know what state we live in, dumbass. And then of course theres my family who won't leave me the fuck alone, always trying to force me to do shit I dont want to do, and then they critisize me for being the way I am. I AM NOT GOING TO APOLOGIZE FOR BEING THE WAY I FUCKING AM, SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE, OR BURN IN HELL! http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090529225834173 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090529162351368 OK ......I am traveling for work right now , if i don't get this AWEFUL shit off my chest I am going to BLOW!!! My mother came to my house to take care of my little girl while my husband works a lot of hours, my Mother in Law unfortunetly moved in with us a while back and it has been completely horrible ever since, she completely verbally attached my mother yesterday, told my mother all kinds aof Vicious things about me, calling me dirty, a liar, sneaky, a horrible wife becasue I don't cook for my husband, telling her my house is disgusing ( it is very clean) said I owe her money, told My mother that my husband and mother in law went to a lawyer to get her money back ( I didn't take any money) she went on and on about how the things I own in my house was crap.... She has been telling her Greek lady friends that I don't buy groceries and that she has no food to eat ( My husband owns and cooks in his own restaurant) she's there all the time, we eat our dinners there So she now has her friends feeding her during the day.... So I put my foot down, its me or her, I told him this week she finds a place or me and my daughter find a place.... My mother fought back,....told my mother in law that she won't be happy till she is the only woman in my husbands life and also told her that she wasn't christian.... I know now why my sister in law doesn't want her in her house http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090529162351368 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090529031845276 I have to say that I've come to the conclusion that one of the biggest problems facing this country is the "Media" specifically the so called news media. Today after North Korea has been saber rattling I actually made the mistake of checking out CNN.com. What a pathetic peice of crap that site is. All of these things going on in the world and what stories do they run? "Chicken crosses road for doughnut" it's almost laughable. I'll tell you what journalists in this country are now officially lower then paparazzi. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090529031845276 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090529004227268 In the 3 months i worked at Tim Hortons, my co workers were all very friendly. .and even smiled as they handed me the shit jobs. . and then wrote letters of complaint and requests to fire me to the boss. I was "let go" just shy of my 3 month probation periode being over. And after i had a work related injury, when my knee collapsed on the job. That bastard didn't have the balls to fire me himself. . .he had to have his lap dog the "Assistant Mannager" do it and tell me i "clearly cant handle the job" then ask me to return the uniform ASAP. those ASSHOLES will be lucky if i ever return the hat let alone the entire uniform. . .FUCK THEM THOSE MISSERABLE PRICKS! Just wait till i get a better paying more rewarding job. .i'll cruise through the drive thru and shove it in there faces. .!! XD http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090529004227268 http://www.justrage.com/article.php/20090528234342515 SO when I was younger and dramatically more stupid, I married this guy. He was thin and gorgeous and employed and I did not see through this facade. Now don't get me wrong, I do feel tricked and somehow manipulated but I know that this is ultimately my own fault for choosing this man. Now it's been a few years and through his bouts of depression and unemployment and fat-lazy-fuck-ness and his inability to stop touching his wanker, I have come to hate him very much. Like a fool, during the longest of his employed spells (a year or so) I decided to have a baby with the guy. So now I have an eight month old. I am goign to college, a bit of a late starter but at least I'm goign I guess, I have a minimum wage job, and I think every day of leaving this man. His unemployment will eventually run out (not for a long time actually due to the new extension policies), and I am so tired of living in this shack with no money to pay the bills or buy clothes or have fun... Call me a bitch, at this point I already know I am. I'm a beautiful young girl with a beautiful baby and I'm living with a bum/childish/moron/fuck. Well he's not a moron, he's very smart. But the laziness is what kills me. And every time he gets fucking fired I die a little inside. He has an interview tomorrow, which is a miracle. Someone at his school is trying to find him a job, god knows he doesn't look for one. He will have days where he's normal, a few days, and then it's back to his lazy fucking bullshit, on the couch playing video games all day. What a sad life, and he makes me so depresed. You can tell me he has depression and whateverthefuck, and yea tha'ts fine but you know what fucking snap out of it. I'm done. I can't decide what to do with the fucker, do I leave him or do I Just continue to drink enough so that I can pretend he's a decent human being and that eventually he'll grow up and get a job from which he won't be fired. THe only way I can bear sex with the guy is when I'm drunk. It's sad. I by no means have an addiction, but I'm probably on my way to one. At this point my life is looking dim. What kind of fucking mother is too depressed to play with her own baby? THis man is ruining my life and it's all because I FUCKING LET HIM. If I wasn't such a fucking doormat, because my mother abused me or for whatever the fuck reason, my baby would be better off. I would be better off. But I'll never leave the bastard because I'm that afraid of confrontation. GOd I am a fucking loser. http://www.justrage.com/trackback.php/20090528234342515