 Okay so get this. My mom had a hysterectomy? So she has to take hormone pills now. Well, obviously they are not working! Sometimes she will just fucking snap out of her mind and just go crazy on whoever is the closest. She will just start ranting and yelling it is terrible! Anyways my family used to be really close but now because of this my mom and dad's marriage is falling apart. Also, I can't talk to my mom anymore or anything because she will just go insane! Also my sister is just like you can tell me anything! Wrong! Anything I say or do she runs and tells my mom! Then my mom yells at me! Then I get mad at my sister and she tells my mom I am mad at her and then my mom yells at me some more! I swear to god!
Then only person I can stand in my family is my dad, god bless this man I don't know how he does it. I can talk to him about things when my mom and sister are giving me hell. Then I also have my mom's best friend who is my best friend too and more of a mom to me than my own mother has ever been. And her daughter is my best friend too. They and the fact that I would go to hell, and my boyfriend are the only reasons why I don't fucking kill myself! Then my mom goes and tells her best friend, lets call her Sam, everything about me and fake shit she makes up that i do and say. Thank god Sam doesn't believe a word she says and tries to make peace between me and my mom and takes me out with her so I don't have to spend so much time at my house. She takes me to see my boyfriend and well let me do anything with him, short of sex, and won't tell my mom.
Even if I did have sex, she wouldn't tell my mom. Then I have my boyfriend! I love him so much and when I am with him I forget my problems! I only have like a year and 9.5 months till I am 18 and then i am leaving forever! Sometimes I wish I could get pregnant with my boyfriend so we could get married and runaway to mexico right now! I will never treat my kids the way my mom treats me and she is never seeing her fucking grandchildrend or seeing me ever again after I leave! I am glad this site is here to rant on, I feel so much better now after getting this out. I hope maybe, by some miracle, things will get fixed between me and my fucked up family. Please don't think I am a bad person just because of ranting just now but sometimes you just have to get things out or they will build up and then you can't control it anymore and end up doing something you will regret. Please don't write any nasty comments because I am not going to read them or read what I have just written ever again so it won't do you any good and you might as well save your breath and give advice to someone else who needs it on this site or somewhere else.
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