You are fucked up, I hope you die a horrible death that is extremely painful you fucking waste of life whore.

Amen.

With a response like this, you must have never had children before. I have also disliked every minute of being a mother. Its the toughest job in the world and everybody lies about how great it is. It really sucks and theres no going back. I can't believe how you would criticize this mother who is being completely honest about having and raising a child. Its disgusting how society looks down on people who choose not to have children and criticizes mothers when they are honest about how it really is.

Should of thought about that before getting knocked up you stupid cunt. Duh. Now deal with it and I better not see your hick ass on Nancy Grace's show with that bloated windbag talking about what a fuckup you are. You wouldn't happen to be that Casey Anthony slut would you? If you are you look much better with makeup on than without.

No mate you are the idiot. This poor woman is under stress and people like YOU!!! Obviously live in laa laa land if you think parenting is easy, because it isn't easy. She is being honest, which in today society, thats hard (being honest) Its so easy to say what you did with out actually putiing yourself in her postion. I bet you don't help out when your friend actually need an ear to talk to.

Thank You for your Honesty. It's so easy for people who don't have kids or people who Are NOT Single Parents to Judge you for being unhappy as a Parent. Having regrets about being a Parent Doesn't mean you Hate your Child...It means that the Responsibility of being a Parent (Especially a Mom) is Extremely stressful (Especially for Single Moms/Dads). The people who are Judging you need to Shut Up and take the advice of a Parent who has already been there. The perspective of a person who is Stressed from being a Parent, is one to Really Listen to. This Could be A REGRET for other People after they have kids also and they will wish that they did listen to someone who was honest about the Cons of Parenthood. Their are Men who abandon their Kids every day and No one seems to care that they don't take responsponsiblity for their Kids Or Their Families at all! When a Mother admitts to her Regrets of being a Parent she is seen as Evil and Persecuted by Judgemental, Self Righteous, Ignorant people who make Stupid comments to her. Men who Regret having kids take it a step further and actually ABANDON them, but No One Criticizes them for it. It's considered the "Norm" for a Man to Regret having kids these days. People need to be Honest with others about the Pros and Cons of Having Kids so That other People will realize the Reality of Being a Parent and how Stressful it can really be.  I think Women especially are Afraid of being Judged for Not liking Motherhood and keep the fact that they are unhappy to themself. What may be helpful is a support group or perhaps a counselor that can help you deal with the stress of being a parent. There are ALOT of Responsible, Caring Parents who are Extremely Stressed by their Extreme responsiblity as a Parent so You are not the only one. It may also be helpful to talk to other Parents (particularly Mothers) who have gone through the same thing that you have gone through with raising children. It may inspire you to see that things can get better. In these modern days, your life doesn't have to be over just because you have kids. There are things like 24 hr Childcare Centers or Family Care that will allow you to work non-traditional hours or Just have a girls night or date night out once a week or more. If you need childcare for work you can also get help with the cost of it from Your Local Department of Social Services. All. There is no shame in asking for help. I hate that  you are unhappy about being a Mom, but expressing your concerns, fears and stresses of being a Parent to a Counselor, Good friend, Religious leader or another Parent may really help you put things in Perspective. I don't think I would look for help on websites like this one.  Most of the people who have responded to your concern don't care about what you are going through as a Woman or as a Mother but I think those closest to you would. I truly hope that you can find support systems like friends and family that respect what your are going through and wish you nothing but the best. Good luck and remember that only a Good Parent can actually be stressed about being a Parent because you have to actually give a damn about your kids to be stressed at all.

You are far from being alone in this.

Imagine how much the child will or does hate you. You sorry piece of shit. You shouldn't make a child suffer because you didsomething you think is not fitting of you. Haven't you ever heard of adoption? Your'e a sorry excuse for a woman.

You are not a horrible person. You are an honest person, who was probably speaking in the moment. We all hate some part of our lives at some point. There are ups and down in everything life has to offer. I am pregnant now and although I always wanted a baby and family, I have to admit I have all sorts of thougts that are out of charater for me. Including feeling trapped and maybe forced into this "fantasy". Obviously I will find joy in it and hopefully I will loose these feelings, but I think something happens in our brains or something that make us more self-interested. I can't explain it and I hope there will be research done on this subject. I was an extremely loving, motherly woman before... I feel like I have lost myself . Maybe it is the society we live in. Such a self-absorbed, materialistic society. It must have to do with first finding inner peace amongst all this grief annd suffering. Hopefully our children hold some sort of key with their innocence that will teach us to love not only them but ourselves as well. Thank you for being honest, I think that is the first step in self discovery and the solving of this problem. My love goes out to you and every woman struggling to understand themselves and their role in this world.

I totally understand how you feel, I feel the same. And for the comment  about how you a terrible piece of shit because of it-I bet million dollars it was posted by a man because no man could ever bear the pain of givin birth and loosing everything in order to raise a child. Men are selfish pigs who don't know shit about motherhood. I hate being a mother more than anything  I have ever done in my life, but I was pressured to it by my husband, parents, society...friedns. Everyone says that it is different once it's yours. YEAH, it, is, - WORSE!!! You can't run away from it. I am counting days until she's 18 and leaves the house so I can have some of my previous life back. And that did not constitute of some promiscuos parties but of normal peaceful evening when you can watch tv and think about anything you want. I know I should not have had kids, just like I had been always saying - noone believed me and told me I should do it and I would fall in love woth it. BULLSHIT! Here is my advise, if you feel like you are not the motherly type, don't do it!

I saw myself in quite a few rants on your post.
I am so sad for you, and I feel your pain.
I'm sorry people have cursed at you. I doubt they understand your anguish. If they did, they would not be swearing at you.

Listen, try your best not to blame the child for something your husband dumped on you. I read almost all comments and I find that in many cases these moms just need a break, and they're not getting it. And lots of times, it's because they're alone, or the male partner has left them.

You need a break. You deserve a break. You must find a way to get away - just for a couple of hours.
I had post partum depression and the breaks worked wonders. Is there a friend you could count on to help you get this break? Are there community agencies which will help distraught mothers? I wish I could help you.
Please try not to take it out on the baby. It's hard not to if you're at your wits end. But look at it this way: babies are vulnerable and need to be loved to feel safe. Your love. Your child wants you to love them. You don't need to be super mom; just love him/her and feed him/her.

It sucks and it's lonely. I hope you overcome this battle. Take care of yourself.
Tatiana

go to hell.  don't judge others.

Your fucking nuts. This isnt post partum depression....its being a peice of shit, plain and simple.

Maybe you should have waited until you were more mature and responsible before having kids. Kids are a challenge, NO SHIT, everyone knows that. How can you be pissed off about a decision YOU made. You're a horrible mother.

How do you "volunteer" to be a Mother?

You spread your whoring legs, obviously.

fuck u. if u are a man and jugde in this way, u don't understand a fuckin' thing. if u are a women then fuck u twice and  hope u'll burn in hell

And you probably sleep with them,

 i'm soo tired of how society tells us to live " you're too skinny, you're not skinny enough" " you're a woman, you need to be the sole carrier and responsible person in the relationship and stay home and subside to your husbands every desire and forget about your own desires and dreams, I am a mother, and im very tired as well, i find no joy in this ROLE that society has given to a lot of us women.... and the fathers?????? Where are they?????? Probably fucking whores that this poster above stated above, and maybe at the bar instead of taking their RIGHTFUL place as a father instead of letting the significant other play mommy to them,  we are in a society of selfish men who are out to marry their mothers not a woman,
and the days seem to just grind away, maybe instead of putting her down you should help, offer to buy her a cup of coffee

Yikes! You are one messed up individual. What the fuck? I hope this is a joke, or you really are a whore. A selfish, childish, idiotic, dumbshit bitch. I feel so sorry for you child, what is wrong with you?

ugh you guys. stop. and. think. i highly doubt that her child is really a child. the author is probably an older woman with an older son or daughter. seriously, it probably isn't as bad as it sounds. so cut her some slack.

You don't know shit about what a hard job it is to raise a baby. Unless you had some premature piece of crap that doesn't move all day and doesn't require any of your attention.

Wow, you are one selfish person, I hope your heart changes and you come to see what a precious gift you have in this baby. Of course it is hard and you have to give up some things that you enjoy, raising children does involve sacrifice to some extent.
If everyone had your attitude the world would be even more messed up than it already is.

Damn, that's almost poetic the way you wrote. I can appreciate your honesty, but surely you realize this isn't healthy for your child? I hope you find some sort of solution. And fuck all the people insulting you, they are ignorant and judgmental. Never judge a person until you've walked a mile in their shoes.

WTF? Of course we're judgmental, jackass! I have walked a mile in her
shoes - I have a twin boy and girl.

She's ruining a person's life! WTMF is wrong with you, you bleeding heart
lesbian feminist bitch? Think of the child!

omigosh, i'm a feminist!! oh no!! real harsh insult you fucking idiot. and really if you want her to change do you think swearing at her will make her want to listen to you? Dumbass.

Yes, swearing at that bitch will help.  And, apparently it will also help with you....you fucking cunt licking toenail eating shit slurping waste of humanity! 

Yes, and I'm sure that as soon as the baby reaches the age of 18, he'll be flying out of your house giving you the finger for being a horrible parent all his life. In short, the baby will hate you just as much as you hate him.

This has got to be the best comment. I am glad you've forewarned her. You don't always get what you've put in.

I hope someone hires a hitman to take you out. You don't deserve to live you piece of shit.

Aaaamen to that, brother.

fuck you! everyone has moments like this. get over yourself

I thought she was dead-on, to be honest. You "get a job, get married, get a mortgage, have kids" because it's what everyone does, it's what everyone tells you you HAVE to do...and then you realise it's a crock of shit. And nobody gives a fuck, so long as you're still doing what everyone else wants.

You want my advice? Just bugger off. Leave the kid, leave the hubby and go start a new life somewhere. Couldn't be any worse than staying where you don't wanna be - for everyone.

Damn straight. I'm with you.

I suggest you exit stage. If you have any scruples you'll pack your bags.
Leave the child with your husband, get a divorce, move on. It's the right
thing to do. Do it.

She should do it as a favor to the poor kid. Not for her own miserable, self serving existence. Fucking bitch, let her say something like that in a women's prison where there are mothers who are incarcerated for crimes of passion committed to save their children, someone would kill her absolutely.

Why do that when they can bend her over and rape her fat ass with a plunger?

Seriously, you need to be taken out back and given two in the hat for your utter lack of regard for the child you brought into this world. Next time don't open your fucking legs you disgusting whore. Fuck you.

Oh puhleeezze!!!  Women in prison are bigger pieces of shit than this woman who's being honest.  "Crimes of Passion" don't exist, those women are stupid criminals!!!!

I know exactly how you feel. The only thing we mothers who aren't thrilled to be mothers but yet are responsible loving citizens is just hang in! Being a mother is not great, sorry but it isn't especially for those of us who never imagined being a Mommy! I had a baby b/c my husband wanted one and I thought the fantastic love I have for him would make things alright. But no. I hate nearly every minute of being a full time mother. Unfortunately we move from country to country due to my husbands job so it's even worse. Being a mommy is not easy and probably the most difficult job for someone like "us". It's like taking a job you really don't like but are stuck in it for life now. It's tough, very tough but I think we're not the only Mom's out there who really don't like being a mom. This does NOT make us selfish or "whores" as some people are replying! Not at all, we just simply are not happy with it. We will survive and probably have truly fantastic kids. Being a mother is not simple. I hate being a mother, it doesn't mean I had my child or my husband I just hate the job of being a mother! There's nothing wrong with that! I reserve the right to hate what I am doing!

thank you for what you said. everyone else's remarks make us feel like
losers. Again...pressure to "do the right thing." Some days I wish I never
had a child and I feel so guilty about that, but it's true. I had a child
because my husband wanted one so badly...and he's not home...I am. I
have no life, no career, I'm bored out of my mind. And after 18 years of
sobriety, I've gone back to "taking the edge off...all day." Thank you for
helping me know I'm not the only one who feels like this sometimes.

I'm just about getting used to it, having fought long and hard against
"becoming a mother" and losing my identity when my first child was a
baby. I hated the routine of it all (still do), and the pretending to find all
baby tasks/play/dressing etc interesting, when they're plainly NOT. You
sound to me like an intelligent woman, so maybe you should do what I did -
get a job and great childcare, so you live the life of a man and only see the
kids in the evenings and at weekends. Once you lose the relentless 24-hour
nature of mothering it becomes much easier (which is why the dads love
spending time with their kids). Believe it or not, you'll actually be glad to
see your baby and all that resentment will disappear. Go and get that life,
girl, and your baby will be happy too, because YOU'LL be happy.

This sounds like a good plan in theory, but then who does take care of the life stuff. What do you do when you get out of work? House hold chores, dishes, laundry, cleaning, cooking. Running kids to practices, friends, school function? Sounds like just as much if not more work just different work. Now I suppose if you have quilifications and the ability to get a really interesting and fullfilling job this might work. But me my work history consists of (ironically) daycare, nurse aid in nursing home or group homes and most prestigious mind numbing clerical work. Adding any of these to my daily tasks does not make the picture look less bleak!

I'm in this exact situation. I hate being a mum. I always wanted kids, imagined a cosy future with fun and love etc. The reality is - no friends, no job, no qualifications, low self-esteem (i'm too scared to think of applying for jobs), childcare is more expensive than what I would earn.
Kids, screech, argue, whinge, destroy, damage, complain, demand, spill (drink after drink, food after food). Playing kids games is boring, going to park is crap, going shopping is frustrating. I hate waking up in morning, I cant' concentrate on anything, their father works all the time so I'm a bitch if I complain. People say it gets better in time. Hah. Its easy for the rude posts to say - why have kids if you dont like it? Well I didnt know how it would be till it happened. Cute babies, loving mummies and daddies was what I was bombarded with my whole life on TV in mags etc
I don't hate my kids per say...I can laugh and play and say I love you and cuddle etc. I hate the situation I've ended up in - in a job I can't ever have a day off from or slack off one day or quit from - ever. Exhausting to think I'm a prisoner to the same tasks for a long long time to come. At least I'm not the only one, hang in there

I understand how you feel. I am a career girl in the same situation. When I got pregnant my then boyfriend begged me to keep the baby. I am horrified frankly. It is the whole being responsible for someone completely and having someone to depend on me that freaks me out. I cannot even contemplate killing myself for the next 18 years or so. Forget about travel, forget about holidays, sheer desperation...

Hugs!

You know, it's funny. You are supposed to magically get this mothering instinct immediately upon going through one of the hardest physical experiences known to man (or woman). It's rough. Then add the changes in your mental state, physical state, lack of sleep. And yet, you're supposed to come through wearing heels, pearls, and a happy smile. Yes, Virginia, we're not that far away from the Harriet stereotype.

And for those that didn't have the experience of pregnancy to help solidify the bound between mother and child, you're up an even bigger creek.

Being a mom and wife is hard. For example...

Night time, getting ready for bed...

Hubby gets off couch, does personal stuff (undresses, brushes teeth, etc) and goes to bed.

Wife / Mommy makes certain the kitchen is clean, things are ready for tomorrow's round of errands / chores, probably folds a load of laundry so folks have underwear, deals with a woken up child, does a walk through of the house and picks up, and finally falls into bed exhausted after a day of keeping the house tidy, feeding her family, keeping up with an active child (very few children aren't active!)...

And people wonder why we get cranky about being moms and wives? Try walking in my shoes, baby, and I love my child. But there are days when I wonder what happened to the witty, intelligent, interesting woman I once was. Now, my biggest topic of conversation is that my child is shitting on the pot. There are days when I resent the men in my life (hubby, son, male cat, male turtle LOL) and want nothing more than to leave for a deserted island.

What you feel is normal... extreme, but normal. I would recommend that you find a counselor that listens to you -- maybe even online. Talk to your medical doctor and make certain you are healthy. I had a rough spell where my immune system was compromised and it made my life a living hell. Then, take a good, honest look at where you are.

The hardest lesson in learning to be a mom, is learning that sometimes, you have to put yourself first. It's like they always say on the airlines... "Put your own airmask on first, then help others." You can NOT take care of others if you neglect yourself.

Good luck.

I'm a single mom, without any help at all. I can't even take a day off if i'm sick!I go to work every day (who else will pay my rent?), then mother and take care of household chores every evening, and every weekend. I can't go on a date, or almost ever even take an evening off for myself. When you're a mother, you have to give up EVERYTHING you like, everything you want, all your hobbies, sports... EVERYTHING. You DO lose your identity and your friends. People stop inviting you places. You can't shop at all, because the kid has tantrums in the store. You can't have ANY nice things or take the kid anywhere, because they'll destroy something. And if you think babies are hard, wait until you have a 6 year old who won't do anything to help, or anything you ask all day long. I hate being a mother, and there's no support for "us" out there. We're supposed to LOVE it, and feel rewarded every day when we wake up and see that little face. Absolutely Bull Shit. I wish I had made a different decision 6 years ago. But now it's too late.

me too.  it has been 26 years, i wish i made the choice.

Well put! We are not selfish... in fact, we are the exact opposite! We sacrifice ourselves for these children we do not enjoy.

i am sooo with you!!!! I HATE MY JOB...I HATE IT, HATE IT, HATE IT. just wanted to make sure there were other people. i have a 2 year old and I get so SICK of taking care of her i feel like my head could explode! my husband totally sucks and has no understanding of what it takes to stay home and be completely brainless. can he not see the desperation? I'm a better mom than most 90 percent of the time but the other 10 I'm a yelling psycho and I hate it.

Try being a single mother of 3. My father walked out on my mom because he couldn't handle the pressure. If it wasn't for my mother my brothers and I would have probably become bad citizens. She fucking worked her tail off. You do not have any fucking clue how important it is to have a strong mother. Quite your complaining sack up asshole or maybe you need someone to knock you fucking teeth in to set you straight. Weak people like you make me sick. I spit on you.

Hey...no one is saying they do not have the utmost respect for mothers. However, BEING a MOTHER can be extremely taxing because you are constantly putting the needs of others before your own. Just because someone expresses how much they HATE being the maid, butler, chaueffer, cook, coach, teacher, etc...doesn't make them a bad parent. The fact that they are willing to do it even though they hate it doesn't mean they would not kill or even die for their kids. Lesser people walk out like most men do because they cannot handle it. It is the toughest job in the world as I'm sure your mother would tell you since she was a single parent. Ask your mother if she felt anger and frustration while raising her children. Her answer may surprise you.

AMEN to that!!!!!!!!!You are so right.

And your mother probably spits on you.  She had to sacrifice so much for you and in turn you don't even realize that the woman you are rudely replying to was a today's version of your mom!

Fuck you! You're a moron. I bet your mother still changes your diapers. Try getting some real life "adult" experience and then rethink commenting on this topic. Idiot!

I understand what you are going through...BUT I love being a mother. I CHOSE to be a mother. I guess, in a way, you can call it volunteering, but it was my CHOISE to give birth, not anyone else’s.
How old is your baby?? Ever hear of this thing called ADOPTION?? There are PLEANTY of families who want kids and would love your baby lots more than you ever will. I mean, stop being so selfish and do something totally self-less and let him/her go be loved by someone who can do it. Maybe, despite what the others would say, this would be a good option for you. You tell yourself—“I will never let them know how much I hate this,” but they will!!!!
If you hate being a mother so much then let dad have baby. I mean he wanted her/him much more than you did obviously. In this case, I think the whole no mom in the picture would be better than allowing you to screw this child's head up. You will just go on ruining this child's life forever. It is people like you who make kids miserable. Let baby have a wonderful life AWAY from you.
Not everyone was meant to be moms or dads and certainly you fit into that crowd.

See this is why women are always surprised when they give birth and find out what motherhood is really like. Because when some woman has the balls to speak out and tell what motherhood is really like she gets a backlash like you have never seen. The maternal instinct is a MYTH people. Not every woman gets her greatest pleasure from wipingrunny noses and ass. She is not a whore or a bitch. She's honest. Maybe more women should be honest so that future unwanted pregancies will not occur out of sheer ignorance. Motherhood is hard whether you like it or not. It is exceedingly hard. Maybe some people SHOULD know this!

you no what.I loved being a mother of one child.since birth I have been her only parent.I have protected,defended,loved and the list goes on and some things privately i dear not mention to get her the little mermaid collection she had to have when she was 8 years old.Ive worked at night so i could be there for her in the day school events and such now at almost 16 what I have gotten is a slap in the face.rude,selfish,lazy behavior everything I taught her not to be truancy from school not coming home or coming home when she gets ready.I have done everything but sit in the classroom for her I have begged , con, asked even bribed her to straighten up and take her education and her behavior serious.Nothing.I don't drink,use drugs or been in a relationship most of her life Do I hate being a mother sadly YES!

Holy crap. This is my story.

yes, and it hurts so bad to have your own child, lie on youlie to you, back stab you,i'm really considering running away, hell men do it all the fucking time.I'm sure I will face felony charges if i do,but hell jail isnt worse then the shit this kid shovels at me.

Are you saying that being a mother automatically means you should love it. That there is something wrong with not loving the difficult, trying, sacraficial job of being a mother. What I'm hearing are all of these horrible insults hurled at this woman for being honest about not liking the job of mothering. She did not say she hated her child, just the job of being a mother. I haven't heard one person say how much they love the job of being a mother just a few comments on being strong, working three jobs, doing what it takes to raise a child or children, yet not one person rants on about the wonderful, fulfilling, best job ever of being a mother. Makes one wonder what's really going on in the hearts and minds of those so quick to spew rage. Could it be a smoldering feeling of familiarity sparked by this honest woman's words? Something to think about before displaying your colorful, creative, and intellectual language of critical thought. Maybe all would be more convincing of their utopic happiness of being a mother if they exemplified what they love about it from the beginning of diaper changes to the raging waters of the teenage years.

You are SOOOO right! And kudos to the brave mother who had the guts to write in in the first place. I thought I was the only one who felt the way we do!!!!!

Being a mother SUCKS! Oh it's work alright, it the kind of work where you never get to leave the f$%^&*# office! Everyday is pure torture and a daily exercise in emotional self-discipline. I can't make it through the day without smoking or popping something to take the edge off. How anyone enjoys this miserable work is beyond me. I am actively involved in my sons lives. I coach, organize play dates, jump in and play games and I hate every f&*^%$# minute of it!

I hate it and my son is 17 it gets no better

Oh My Fucking God. What the fuck is wrong with you all? Most of you chose to be mothers, you inconsiderate bitches. And with every action there is a consequence. Think about it!!! Jesus, if you can't handle the responsibility, THEN USE A FUCKING CONDOM!!!! One of you, not both, it's usually the guy that puts it on, just thought I'd let you dumb whores in on a little secrete. Although, this among all other world "issues" could be solved with one extremely simple, yet extremely rare, trait caled COMMON SENSE.

Next time, please, both of you, stop acting like immature bitches and accept your responsibility as adults and raise your fucking kids, like bitching about the subject is going to make a difference anyway, Peace out, bitches.

Of Course, these women save millions of unwanted babies from being born, abandoned and abused due their candidness. If you were really interested in the state of the world you would encourage these women to speak out not attempt to silence them. Live your life in denial if you want to but please stop encouraging everyone else to do the same. You sound a little overwhelmed yourself. So much pinned- up aggresion. I guess it's better to spill it out on us rather than your child, the probable culprit of such malcontent.

LOL, trying to use such big, fancy words, you sound SO smart, now fuck off.

Listen, assfuck, sometimes you just don't know until you get there. By the way, I bet your mother fucking hates your whiney ass, too.

*chokes* haha

However, it is narrow-minded people like you that make this world such an unsafe place to live. Simply wearing a condom will not somehow magically solve everything. Perhaps birth control would be an option women could choose from. I am 17 my girlfriend is 16, I will hopefully get a job soon so I can pay my aunt to buy my girlfriend some. All ladies should do the same if they have a true desire to stay pregnancy-free. But this is common sense to most people, at least, it should be. Anyways, next time have a little more educated response please. Thanks.

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gallantry

Evidentally you have young children. Try taking care of teenagers who put you through so much stress that you want to run away. They think they are adults but they have the experience of children, and they are strong willed and never stop tormenting. I swear I'm going to end up with a stroke from my kids. for the first time ever, I went on a one-week business trip and it was the most pleasant 7 days of my life. My teens are literally destroying my health.

You must be amazingly stupid person!

have u got kids??? i did not choose to be a mother in fact i used every contrceptive avaiable to men n women only hey presto it didnt work n now i av a 3 yr old i cudnt abort it 1 for my morals wudnt allow n 2 my country wudnt allow.

I hate been a mother and am a totally diff person wen my son is away i am young free and happy i dnt need to worry bout wat time it is if its time to go home yet if i need to put dinner on my life is just relaxed wen my son is away that may sound lazy but life is 4 living not constant routine i wrked from wen he was 18mths until recently and was never out of wrk previous to his birth. i lost my job recently due to depression which my doc called work related stress/ post natal disorder so iv had to deal wit all tis shit becos of 1 human been my son is happy I LOVE HIM DEARLY but that doesnt make my endless rows giving out screams winging it makes none of it anymore joyful just becos i love him i will av d biggest party ever d day he moves out only il b alone bcos i no longer av friends i av no wrkmates i av me, my son and my partner which is skating on thin ice to becos we fight all d time bcos he wrks n doesnt av to deal wit the screaming horrible nasty child he deals with the exhausted in pjs ready 4 bed child which i would loving do each evening  after working. but he has bills he has tis he has dat but fuck my life n my bills so dont dish out ur bollox at people til uv done wat theyve done given up wat theyv given up you aint got a clue

Yup. My daughter is 17 and I've always hated being a mother. Got pregnant at a young age (my only screw-up in life) and my mother wouldn't let me get an abortion nor give her up for adoption. I've often prayed for death. Maybe one day I'll find the courage to put myself out of my misery.

Being a mom is exceedlingly hard work. You're not alone in your sentiment....especially when you have to do it alone. Thanks for being honest.

I typed this in because I really am at my last hope. I hate being a Mom and knew it as soon as my son was born - immediately I felt like I had just made a huge mistake. I love my son to death, but it is a constant effort. I have to paint a happy face, listen, hug, provide structure, help, feed, act happy when he comes home from school. I cannot even count the times I have cried and prayed to God he does not know this about me. It was never his fault I did not get the "Mother's Love and Pride" gene. I have tried to a fault to imagine the undying love most mom's feel. I ask myelf "am I the only one who is faulty and miswired?" My husband begged my to keep the baby and have it, I had so many doubts, and I did not listen to the voice that said dont have children! I NEVER liked kids! That is what is so crazy! I thought like everyone told me - Motherhood comes naturally. I have seen shrinks, I have confessed to my mom, she said it is not as uncommon as I think. My son is fabulous, well behaved, he is almost 17 now and I think sometimes I see the light at the end of the tunnel....His father died a while back, I am alone. My family is in Alaska, I am in the Mid-west. I am NOT a WHORE, OR A BITCH, TO all you PERFECT PEOPLE, out there. I did not have any more children , after him, I have had my tubes tied, knowing full well how I was. Doctors tried to say I was too young to have my tubes tied!! They had no idea how wrong they were!! Will it ever change? What will I do when maybe Grandchildren are born and I must act happy and loving to them?? To all of you out there, I was glad to find this site, I am not caring in the least about what you all think. I am wanting help - I have ALWAYS wanted answers to this. People say I am a good mother - My son is proof. They have no idea the hell I feel somedays....it is like a black hole that follows me everywhere. Who says this is not post-partum Depression that never went away?? I have always wondered that. it feels that way. I have nightmares of him dying, or horrible things that jar my senses back to reality. My mom told me this one day, I repeat it to myself all the time. She said to me: ONE DAY, YOU WILL KNOW WHY GOD GAVE YOU THIS, YOU WILL KNOW WHY YOU HAD HIM, IT WILL BECOME CLEAR. THE TEST IS ONE THAT FEELS HUGE, BUT ONE DAY YOU WILL KNOW IN YOUR HEART WHY YOU ARE A MOTHER TO THIS SON........

Hi. I am going through similar things myself. I know how you feel. I am glad you wrote this because I know I am not alone and you should know you are not alone either. I love my children (I have two) but I am having a difficult time myself. I think it's due to anxiety and depression issues. That and the fact my husband works away from home all week and I only have his help on the weekends. Oh yeah - only have his car on weekends too. I don't have a regular baby-sitter, can't afford one, I am constantly worried about horrible things happening to my kids and just feel stuck. Really, really stuck. And so, so tired. I have not gone a "date" with my husband in over a year and wonder sometimes if he still loves me. I love my kids, but sometimes think they deserve someone better than me. ANyay - don;t listen to these haters on here. You are doing the best you can.