I know this is going to sound horrible but better I get it out here than say something so hurtful to him...right?
I wish I could say I love him anyway, but I have never really loved anyone. I feel less-than-hate for people and that's about the extent of my emotional capacity, unfortunately. Anyway...
He can't do anything. I ask him to make a phone call while I do a million other things in preparation to going out, and he spends the next hour killing time and dawdling until I get fed up, we're late, and I have to do it myself. Or he completely ignores me until it's too late (ie place is closed). He can't fucking do ANYTHING useful. He can't ask for help in a store. He can't ask the waiter to come over because we need refills. He can't do anything.
Furthermore, you'd think he might be useful being a computer geek. But no, he's even a complete retard there! What the fuck! He spends his LIFE with the computers and boasts about being so knowledgable, but I'll ask a simple question (which I end up getting the answer to with 10 minutes of googling) and he's fucking clueless. He texts me every five minutes even if I don't reply. He's useless!
He constantly makes promises or offers things that NEVER fucking happen. ie, we were supposed to go on a trip several months ago. I left my job early (was quitting anyway) so that I'd have the time to. Guess what? Never happened. This applies also to going out (plans out a date, tells me about it, never takes me), things I don't buy for myself because he says he'll grab it for me (never has). Oh, on top of all this...we've been dating for a year and his family still doesn't know. Because he's a wimpy little faggot and is scared he'll be teased for having a girlfriend. He's 25.
I hate to say it but I think I fucking hate him. I feel horribly evil for even writing this, and unfortunately I could go on and on, but I had to get it out lest it escape in his presence. What the fuck do I do now? He's so pathetic, I don't want to go through the inevitable four weeks of constant harassment and crying (did I mention that? He cries over everything.) that is guaranteed with a break up. I wish he would just go the fuck away. I've tried to make him break up with me, but he's too pathetic to ever stick up for himself.
How was such a useless human created? His family has always been sheltered and rich, but now the fuck did his siblings turn out normal and self sufficient? Fucking idiot can't deal with anything without his mommy, either. I've had texts from him about how he just sat with her crying. What the fuck, grow a fucking dick you dipshit loser.
Disclaimer: I'm in a rage. I'm not usually quite this awful, though I admit I'm probably not human,