LateChoco raged 4 months ago ——
Okay so today my 2 year old decides to go in the fridge and grab the ground beef that I had defrosting in the fridge and put it on his comforter!!
Let me just update you on how bad my life sucks at the moment
After giving birth to my second child.. i fell into a deep depression!! and have been severely depressed for over 2 years.
I have insomnia when i try to go to sleep at night and i sleep half of the day and cant wake up.
When I do finally wake up, I can barely brush my teeth and wash my face!! its even more of a struggle to clean my house and feed my kids.. Ive tried a few things to help.. Marijuana seems to be the only thing that gives me the energy i need to get through the day and accomplish something in a days time.
this past weekend our car broke down.. we spent all of our money to fix the car last week and the car broke down yet again!!
My fiance had to walk an hour and a half to pick up my son from school. All of these negative events have cause me to be stressed out and guess what?? I ran out of Marijuana yesterday!! I am currently struggling with my depression Sober.. which isnt good!! I am not patient with kids.. never have been. I Love My Kids!! But Damn!! Dont I have enough on my plate dealing with everything!! I do what I am supposed to do. Never go out!! stay at home and do my job as a mother every single day!! No Complaits!! But to now have to worry if my child ate some of theis raw ground beef or rolled it around all of his toys!! Who knows what the groud beef touched!! Im beyond irritated!! Pissed is the word im looking for.. Pissed!!!
Well it said I could Rant!! and thats what the hell I'm doing!! For those of you that think i am a whiny bitch.. Fuck You And The Horse That You Rode In On!!!! Im Pissed And Irritated!! My first Rant.. hopefully not my last! Whew.. Thank You fopr allowing mr to tell someone!! Sometimes you just need to get it off you chest!